Lyrics Chopped and Screwed... (I Wonder- kanye, Go Ahead- A.keys, What were We thinking- joss stone)

THIS IS ANOTHER NIGGAS AIN'T SHIT BUT HOES AND TRICKS ENTRY!!!!

So if I could write poetry... it would go something like this. I guess you could say that this is how i'm feeling right now. Maybe cuz the pack is on sugar pills. TMI? Lo Siento. But yeah here's that shit: (that i thought was cool when i did at first)

Used to look at you and see the possibilities.
Now I see you for who you are
(Boy You disappointed me.)
You think you're never wrong.
(He get on my fucking nerves.)
I hope he gets what he deserves.
I'm just trynna find where the tissue is...
See it can't ever be
We carried on making our mistakes
Thinking our love was free
Now you've taken part of me
No need to apologize
Don’t try to make it right
I know
I should known betta
When you took hold
I was sold
Using fear to control
Now it unfolds
Let me tell you right now
What I’m gonna do
Imade up my mind
Its time and I’m through with you
Nothing you can say or can do
Can make me change me mind
(Now I'm back on my grind)
On that Independent Shit
Trade it all for a husband and some kids
I wonder what it all really means? I wonder if I'll ever find my dreams....

Stay Awake To The Ways of The World.

The Sun Came Out

SO I should've wrote this yesterday.

So RIGHT after class I caught the 2:40 bus (my class ended at 2:30 so i kinda rushed to the station) to center city to buy the new CD. I was so amped. I even walked around with the pocket of my back pack open all the way from the bus stop in center city to FYE. SOmeone could've easily stolen my coach wristlet that contained My temple ID, Guest Card, my credit card, and a fresh (no so crisp since it was folded) 20. So I'm in FYE looking at the new music stand. AHHHHHH there it is. I grabbed it up. Next to (or maybe bellow) was Estelle's CD. Wondered if I should buy it... decided not to. I'll burn it. Her song shine is my shit though. But I only wanted to spend 20 and buying her cd would've made me use my credit card. SO then here I am with the New roots but unable to listen to it. On New Music Tuesday's I'm going to just carry around a cd player in my backpack. (Probably Drew's since it's been in my car forever)

So then I had like a whole hour to waste in Center City... and as soon as I stepped out of FYE the sun came out. OH WHAT A COINKY DINK!! lol So i decide to go look for a mother's day present. I wanted to get my mom a journal and I was going to write a poem in it. Even though I'ma terrible poet. AND I MEAN TERRIBLE.
So I'm walking around thinking of where I can find a journal. For some reason I had in my head this stationary place but I couldn't remember where it was and if it was even in philly (might have beeen in VA). So then I was walking aimlessly down some street cuz it seemed like it would have shops. I think it was Market actually. But I went further down past the McDonalds. (which for some reason I thought after McDOnalds the shoppind district ended cuz that mickey d's looks sketch) BUT it wasn't!! So then I was on my columbus shit you know exploring and what not. Then I see this little park or just a nice lil spot... it was Rittenhouse Square. It was just so loverly. This is going to be my picnic spot next spring. There was this lady playing with her baby... old people.. old couples holding hands. It was all flower filled. Just said LOVE,HAPPINESS, and PEACE.

So then I'm all thirsty cuz the sun came out and I was in a black crew sweatshirt (black cloud...muckers club joint) So I was like i need something to drink I'm parched. SO i stop by the starbucks in Barnes and Noble and get a Iced Passion Fruit Tea. Their shit wass watered down. But that's besides the point. So then I'm like HEY!! B&N should have Journals.

I picked out the loveliest journal for my mommy. it has a flower on the cover with some scripture. I think I'm going to search for flowers just like it and send her some. With some chocolates maybe. Maybe make some breakfast...French Toast with some berries or something sweet.
I love that women. =)

Stay Awake to the ways of the world

This Is Why I Love Him

Lupe is Just Amazing. I want a man just like this. Honest. Unselfish. Humble. and Wise
Found this on Kanyelive.com

I'm Above It

So this morning. My roommate and I had another altercation. She tried to yell at me. Told her to get out of my face. Yelling at someone does not get your point accross, it gets you cussed out. Unless you are my mother, my father, my grandfather, my uncle...(basically any family member who is older than me) don't yell at me. Yelling doesn't work with me. I'ma tell you to get out of my face... try to remain calm and then yell back. Now you're crying. Where did you get yourself?? No where. She said she was going to start purposely acting like a bitch to me. Okay. That's cool. Go out of your way to be a bitch. That's cool. That's wise. That's using your energy to its fullest.

So I go to class and come back and she's playing music. Okay That's Cool. (those are my thoughts.) Usually We turn off our music and turn the tv on when the other comes in. Nope she doesn't do that. Okay that's cool. I'ma just turn on the TV. She turns her shit up louder. Kay this is childish. and dumb. and just childish.

I go to wash my clothes. Come back. She's gone. I think to myself let me play my music loud as shit and not give a fuck when she gets back. Then I'm like no. I'm not going out of my way to hurt someone. That's dumb and childish. I'm above it.



Do Unto Others As You Would want them to do unto you. I remember those rulers. I went to a christian school. (Calvery Road Christian School). I go to church occasionally. My paerents taught me not to fight fire with fire. They taught me to turn the other cheek. So for now that's what I will be doing turning the other cheek. Rising Above.

Random Thoughts

Questions Existing:
Why is it so cold today?
Why is it that I applied to jai like 50 temple jobs and haven't heard from anything?
Why are my cheeks chubby? (that's not a good look)
Why are certain dudes just straight up assholes?
How come it's only been a week and I already want more? (when it's good it's addictive)
Why is my face breaking out?
Why do I always get stuck with the shitty jobs?

Statements:
YaY!! Living with Corinne at Univeristy Village next year shall be AMAZING.
English 1002 needs to be reevaluated. This book is garbage.
That just reminded me, if I email the author I can get extra credit.
Got an 85 on my spanish test. It's like a steady decline... (1st test 89 2nd 87)
Back in the day I'd say I'd need to laugh, Now I say I need to scream.

Love Rain

This is my favorite Jill Scott song. I have the Love Rain [Head Nod Mix] on my ipod. I didn't know that there was a regular one until I was searching for the lyrics late last night because when I couldn't sleep I was singing this song in my head.
The Song just brings me back to times in my life where I was just blinded by love or lust. The second verse Hits Home.


It's one of those feelings that I can't really explain. It's like I couldn't see. Oblivious to the truth. I'm just at a lose of words. But this song definitely exemplifies just some of the feelings that I have. Just some. Mos def's verse just sickens me. I hate how certain guys just know what to say to get their way. They know how to tap into your feelings, and into your head.


Never Again.

Awwww Man.

As you all know or may not know, but it is very important to vote in the Presidential Primary Elections this year. When we first came to Temple, Redd and I registered to vote in Pennsylvania. So as the months went by I wondered if they were ever going to send me anything and they didn't. When it became closer to the primaries there were alot of people regsitering voters and walking around asking people if they were registered. It got annoying after awhile. So now I noticed that voting for the Pennsylvania is On April 22nd. (shout out to google)

So then I went on the lil PA website to find my voting place and it was down the street. Then I read and it said just because this is your voting place doesn't mean you are registered. SO I made a user name and everything. AND GUESS THE FUCK WHAT?!?!? Joint said I'm not register. And all those times when people asked me if I was registered I was saying yes. Now I can't vote in the PA Primaries. I'm kinda tight at the poeple who signed us up that day.

Motives and Thoughts

I love this Poem by Lauryn Hill. She is amazing. The last few lines are my favorite. But the poem is great and so truthful.

Forgive Them Father

People these days seem to be inconsiderate of others feelings. They act as if life is a jungle (sort to speak). They try to attack the weak in order to uplift themselves. It's sad. It's Immature. It's a Cry For Help.
In The Words of Lauryn Hill:
Beware the false motives of others
Be careful of those who pretend to be brothers
And you never suppose it's those who are closest to you, to you
They say all the right things to gain their position
Then use your kindness as their ammunition
To shoot you down in the name of ambition

Can you act civilized and learn to handle situations a little bit better? Maybe?

Chracteristics of an Untrue Friend

FAKE
: counterfeit, sham

HYP·O·CRITE
Pronunciation:
\ˈhi-pə-ˌkrit\
1 : a person who puts on a false appearance of virtue or religion
2 : a person who acts in contradiction to his or her stated beliefs or feelings

SELF·ISH
Pronunciation:
\ˈsel-fish\
1: concerned excessively or exclusively with oneself : seeking or concentrating on one's own advantage, pleasure, or well-being without regard for others
2: arising from concern with one's own welfare or advantage in disregard of others a selfish act

COLD·HEART·ED
Pronunciation:
\ˈkōld-ˈhär-təd\
: marked by lack of sympathy, interest, or sensitivity a coldhearted refusal

Philadelphia Youth

I love the Window seat. When I was on the bus today (coming from Center City) I looked out the window and noticed some things about my home away from home.
1) I saw a boy who had to have been about 15 selling bean pies on the street. Child labor is a sad thing.
2) I saw the track team from one of the highschools practicing hand offs (with the buton). It was odd to me because they were on the sidewalk instead of a track. Can Philadelphia Public Schools or whatever school system that was not afford tracks?
3) Then I saw another girl whO I assume was on the track team too, running with chucks. That hurts. How can you run with chucks? Poor thing.

It wass a sad day.
And I JUST heard that Philadelphia has the 34th worst Graduation Rate.
And it may take up to 6 years for a child to graduate.
They say high drop out rates are continuing to be a challenge due to poor funding.